Post by Sean Holmes on Aug 1, 2009 9:33:23 GMT
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*TELL ME WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE
Name :: Sean Elliot Holmes is his name. While his first name doesn't have any real significance aside from the fact that his parents liked it, Elliot is a name he shares with his father. Instead of naming him 'Elliot' like his parents had originally intended, they gave it to him as his middle name, in order to avoid confusion around the house. Sean absolutely hates sharing his name with someone like his father, and plans to drop his middle name as soon as he turns eighteen. Holmes is his surname, something that has been passed down for generations.
Nickname :: Sean is a pretty short name as it is, so that's what he is most frequently called. Some people refer to him by Holmes, which doesn't particularly bother him. Since they do detective work in Lockdown, he occasionally extends the nickname to Damien, calling him Watson. However, those aren't the only two names he gets called by. People who tease him often have their own little pet names for him, none of which are very nice. When he was younger he used to be called four-eyes a lot because he had glasses. In fact, some people still occasionally call him by that name even though he hasn't had glasses in a couple of years. Bullies aren't always too original, and some things never die.
Age :: Seventeen. It's not a bad age, although he wishes that he would hurry up and turn eighteen already so he can move out of his house and drop his middle name. The freedom would be nice, sometimes the only thing that keeps him going is knowing that in one year his life will change. Just one more year.
Sexuality :: Sean's gay, he's known for a few years that he wasn't like "normal" boys. He hasn't confided in anyone about his sexuality yet, because the one person he'd normally tell about such things to...well...he can't tell Damien about it. It's a secret that has been eating him up inside, but he's dealt with it thus far. He doesn't know how much longer he can keep silent, though. It's really taking a toll on him.
Clique :: Sean always has and probably always will be a nerd. In order to avoid his father's abuse, he immersed himself into his school work and enjoys it. It gets him away from reality and he enjoys being intelligent. He doesn't have a lot of other qualities that are really good--in his eyes, anyway--but at least he has his grades and knowledge.
*LOOK IN THE MIRROR
Overall appearance :: Inherited from his mother, Sean has medium brown hair, something that he thinks is bland, but doesn't mind. He normally keeps it parted on the side and brushed out of his face. His eyes are a charming light blue color, something that he finds to be his best feature. He doesn't smile a whole lot, but he has a nice one if he decides to show it.
Sean is short in stature for a male, and only stands at about five feet, seven inches tall. He always hoped for a growth spurt in his teenage years, but it never really came. He's lean and despite the fact that he's classified as a nerd, he has some muscles as well, although they aren't terribly noticeable because he wears long sleeves whenever he can. As for his clothing style, he tends to wear dressier clothing if he can help it, such as button-up shirts and slacks. When it's time for Lockdown meetings though, he dresses for comfort, and tends to wear jeans and various types of shirts.
People have always teased him about being a nerd. Although it probably has something to do with his personality and actions, Sean believes the reason for the teasing is involved with his appearance as well. For many years of his life, his eyes were hidden away behind glasses. By the time Sean got contacts a year or two ago, it didn't matter much anyway, people already had preconceived notions of him as being a nerd. It honestly doesn't bother him very much, he could really care less what most others think of him. As long as his best friend is there for him, he can push it aside, for the most part.
playby :: Tobey Maguire.
*I THOUGHT I KNEW YOU
Overall personality :: Deep down, Sean is a nice kid who's just had a rough life. He's generally quiet around others that he doesn't know, the only person he truly opens up around is Damien Shaw, his best friend whom he's known since he was little. Sean has been pushed around a lot in his life, and because of it, he has the tendency to push his best friend around verbally. He's bossy and tries to control things, but it's just because he doesn't want Damien to realize how much he actually means to him.
He's completely different around everyone else though, because it's not the same and they don't know him like his friend does. Sean tends to be rather quiet unless he's approached first, and even then it really just depends on his mood. The male is used to being teased for being a nerd; it's been a constant in his life for as long as he can remember. He's passive when it comes to defending himself, but if they hassle Damien too much, he tends to pipe up. There is one facet of teasing that bothers him, the fact that people tease him about being gay with Damien. The thing is, he actually is gay, and has a crush on his best friend, though he hasn't told a soul about it. He doesn't like the fact that it's become something so negative, something that certain people tease about relentlessly. It's made it all the more difficult to be honest about it, and at this point, he's not sure if he'll ever tell anyone.
At home, he lives with an abusive father. He has long since learned not to fight back in the situations, because it just makes things worse if he does. Over the years he's gotten pretty well at avoiding fights altogether by being sneaky, but he can't always be gone from home or in hiding. Instead, he bottles up all the emotions he feels from the situation, and takes them out on himself later. Sean has been hurting himself for years, although it's not always something that's severe. He goes through stages, the more stressful his life is at the time, the more he hurts himself.
Sean keeps all of it a secret---the way his dad treats him, the way he injures himself--the only person who knows about it is Damien. Even though he hates himself for doing it, he cuts himself, and goes to great lengths to hide the scars and wounds from other people. It's just one more thing he has to hide though, because it's not out of the ordinary for him to have bruises or other injuries from his father as well. Sean isn't looking to commit suicide, it's just the only way he knows how to deal with his home life, since he usually won't talk about it, not even to Damien. Still, he relies heavily upon his best friend's support to make it through, and has no idea where he would be without him.
Likes :: "The thing I enjoy the most in life is hanging out with my best friend Damien Shaw. We do pretty much everything together and have been that way for as long as I can remember. Although I don't always act like it, I depend on him a lot. I'd do pretty much anything for him, even if I really hate the idea. For instance, I co-founded Lockdown with him, even though I really don't like the whole thing.
Kids don't call me a nerd for nothing I suppose; I really enjoy school, learning, and getting good grades. Intelligence is something that's very important to me, so I do my best to keep gaining more and more. There probably aren't many people out there who actually enjoy school and homework, but I do. Aside from the learning factor, it also keeps me preoccupied, and gives me a good excuse to get out of my house for several hours a day.
Something that goes hand in hand with my love of school is also my love for reading. I will read just about anything as long as it's well written, but my favorite genres are science fiction, mystery, as well as non-fiction. I'm also a big fan of comic books too; I always have been. I've collected them since I was little, and continue to do so to this very day.
Sometimes I need a break from reading and studying, so I usually turn to video games when that happens. I'm a big gamer, I enjoy several different types, but first person shooters are arguably my favorite. I have a few different systems, but also like playing games on my computer as well. It just depends on the type.
There is one thing that I do, that I don't share with others. I keep a journal of everything going on in my life, and I guard the thing with my life. I write it in every night before I go to sleep, sometimes more depending on how the day is going. I hide it very well, no one has ever found it thus far and I don't expect them to, either."
Dislikes :: "My number one dislike would have to be Michael Myers and his house. The whole thing really bothers me, I don't like going to that house or poking around at evidence either. How is it ever going to end well? No matter what we learn about him and the people he's killed in the past, what action are we really going to take? No one has been able to kill him thus far, and we can't either...this is just going to end badly. I wouldn't be involved in this sort of thing normally, but Damien wants to and I can't really say no. What kind of friend would I be if I let him go into that house and dig around alone? So, I'll shut up and do it, but that doesn't mean I have to like it.
Another thing I don't like is pain. I can't imagine there are many people who actually enjoy being in pain, but I particularly dislike it, but...not because it hurts. I guess it's more because at this point in my life, I've pretty much become numb to it. That can't be normal, but with my father the way he is, it's just something I've become accustomed to, and that's something that's bothered me.
Being dependent on others is another I don't care for, despite the fact that I'm incredibly dependent on my best friend. I always put up a front as though I don't need him, but let's be honest--if Damien wasn't around, where would I be? I don't like thinking about it.
To me, summer is the worst season out there. First, I don't like the break from school because it generally requires me to be at home more often, and I hate it there. Second, I don't really like wearing short sleeved shirts, but it's almost a must because of the weather. I suppose I just prefer the colder months of the year.
Just because I usually don't stand up for myself when I'm being teased, doesn't mean that it's an enjoyable experience for me. In fact, it's quite the opposite. I mean, I don't really care what everyone else thinks about me, but having nasty words shoved in my face constantly takes its toll, especially when I feel I've done nothing to deserve it in the first place.
Hopes and dreams :: "You know it's funny, people think 'nerds' like me have their whole lives figured out, what they want to do when they grow up and where they want to be--I have no idea. I don't know where I want to go to college or what career I want to get into. There are quite a few things that interest me like computers, science, writing and history, but I'm not sure what sort of job field I'd like to get into yet. I guess it all depends on where Damien goes and what he wants to do, I'll figure out my place in the world then. As long as I still have my best friend around, I don't really care about much else.
There is one thing I hope for though, and that's someday, being able to come clean about the fact that I'm gay. Now, I'm absolutely terrified to tell the one person I should be able to talk to about it, because truth is, he's the reason I realized it in the first place. I have a crush on Damien, and someday I'm hoping I have the strength to be honest about it. It's really difficult right now because I feel I can't be, as I don't want to kill our friendship because of it. Another hope is to get moved out of my dad's house when I turn eighteen, that will make life a lot less stressful. At that point, I hope I'll finally be able to quit cutting. "
Strengths :: Sean's main strength is his intelligence and his persistence to continue learning. He does very well in school because of it, although it hasn't made him popular with the other students, unless they need his assistance with homework. He's also very good with technology as well, because he uses it often to help him further his knowledge. Sean really likes being smart, although the repercussions he gets from other students for it aren't as welcome.
Weaknesses :: Sean feels as though he has many weaknesses, but the most notable one is the fact that he's very bad with dealing with his emotions. He doesn't quite know how to handle them, and ends up hurting himself because he can't get relief any other way. When he's struggling with life, he pushes away the people who are there to help him, and ends up treating them badly because he doesn't know how else to react. Sean has made an effort to fix the problem by writing in a journal, but it just hasn't done the trick.
*BACK THROUGH THE PAGES
Family :: Sean's father, Elliot Holmes, is an abusive man and has been for as long as Sean can remember. His grandmother once told him that it was because his grandpa was abusive as well, and was something that got passed down. Sean is determined to break the cycle, and absolutely refuses to cause physical harm onto others, unless it's in order to protect someone else, but even then it's difficult to truly get a rise out of him. It would really take a lot for him to become physical with someone else because of his background. He's terrified of it, actually. His grandma's words have always haunted him, and is afraid that if he ever did unleash that side of him, that it wouldn't go away, even if it was to protect someone.
His mom, Mary Holmes, unfortunately didn't make it too long after Sean's birth. Sean doesn't exactly miss her--it's hard to miss something he never had. He does wonder how his life would've been different though, if she had lived. Sean believes that his father blames him for her passing away, and thinks that has a lot to do with the why he's so aggressive. He's an only child, and the only other notable family member that he sees is his grandma, but she doesn't come around very often.
Pets :: His dad really doesn't have the patience for a pet in the house, so aside from small critters he snuck into his room as a child, he hasn't had any notable pets. Sean does hope to get one someday, when he moves out of his father's house.
Hometown :: Haddonfield, Illinois.
Overall history :: Born in Haddonfield, Illinois, Sean was raised by his father, because unfortunately, his mother passed away soon after giving birth. It was something extremely difficult for his father Elliot to deal with, but for a while, he tried his best to give Sean a good life. When it was time for the young boy to go to school, he showed a lot of promise, even at a young age. Even though he didn't have a mother, things were looking okay. In preschool, he befriended Damien Shaw, who is still to this day, his very best friend.
When Sean was five years old, his grandpa passed away. He didn't fully grasp the concept of death and what it actually meant because he was too young, but it really affected his dad. Things started to go downhill from there, although it started small at first. His dad began to drink, and would sometimes get upset with Sean over stupid things. Sometimes he got spankings for no apparent reason, but at the time he figured that he had done something wrong.
It continuously got worse--the more his dad drank, the more violent he got. He didn't drink all the time though, but regardless, it put Sean on edge all the time. He immersed himself even more into his homework and did his best to cover up the bruises he was getting from his father. The male hated himself for not even trying to fight back due to fear, hated that he couldn't really tell anyone about it, and so he began to harm himself as well. Sean started to cut in places where no one else would see, like his upper arms and sometimes on his legs as well. It's something that he's ashamed of, and is something that he goes to great lengths to hide from others, along with the injuries received from his father.
He had always heard the stories of Michael Myers, it was something constantly gossiped about around Haddonfield. His friend Damien took an interest in it, and although he was against the idea, they began to poke around at the Myer's house. One night, they were using a Ouji board, attempting to contact victims of Michael Myers, to see what they could learn. Sean was terrified when two others barged into the room that he and Damien were in. He had been sure it was Michael, coming to kill them for being nosey. Instead, it was Jack Banner, who smacked him with a baseball bat, along with John Tate. Jack had a breakdown, and finally after everyone was calm and collected, the group Lockdown was formed.
Sean was still against the idea, but went along with it, because Damien did. He was hoping that everyone would get tired of it after a while, but that wasn't the case. Two and half years later, there are nine people in the group, and interest doesn't seem to be fading at all. If he wasn't so close to Damien, he would've quit a long time ago, to be perfectly honest. The thing is, over the past few years, Sean has come to realize that he's gay. Damien is his best friend, the one person that can pick him up when he's down, and knows pretty much everything there is to know about him. Even though he doesn't act like it sometimes, Damien really does help him calm down and figure things out, and Sean has become pretty dependant over the years. He's developed a crush on him, something that he's absolutely terrified of, because Sean's afraid that Damien will freak out about it. He's convinced that their friendship will be ruined, and so he's kept it to himself for quite some time.
It's hard to keep things from Damien, and so he's not sure how much longer he can keep hiding such a big secret. All the while, he's dealing with his father still, and Lockdown too. He's starting to crack under the strain of everything, so something's has to give, and soon.
*COME AGAIN
Anything else? :: Nope, I think I pretty much covered it.
Roleplay example ::A sneeze passed through Rob as he held a tissue up to his face. He let out an annoyed groan and got up from his computer chair to go was his hands for the hundredth time. Rob had a cold and was miserable from it; he didn't like being confined to his room. It was storming outside though, and he didn't want to risk getting any worse. Aside from the fact that he really hated being sick, homecoming was getting closer and he wanted to be better before it.
He returned to the living room of the dorm he lived in, and unlocked the front door so that he wouldn't have to get up when Sierra showed up. It was really lucky that he had caught her online, otherwise the day would been a total waste. Now at least he would have company and soup; both were likely to put him in a better mood. It was funny, Rob wasn't one to really enjoy school, but the one day he didn't go, he actually missed it. However, it was more the people aspect that he had missed rather then his classes.
Robert flopped down onto the couch and pulled up a blanket. He had been camped out on the couch practically all day with his trusty tissue box, trash can, and of course, his beloved remote control. It was a really good thing that he had the television set, otherwise he really would've drove himself crazy with boredom. "Come in," he called tentatively, because he was pretty sure he had heard a knock at the door, but he wasn't positive.
*WHAT A PLAYER
Your Alias :: Jen, although if it's just easier to call me Sean, that works too.
Age :: Oh I think I'll keep this to myself, but if you really want to know, I'll tell you. ^^
Contact :: Pm works well, or you can email me too. I have messengers as well, drop me a PM and I'd be glad to tell you, I just don't like posting them up in public.
How did you find us :: There was an ad on a site I admin on.
Codeword :: * Sing me a dream'
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