FRUSTRATION -Libs

[Theo Spencer]

Theo had just found out that Libbi had slept with Jack. He also had suspicions that she was trying to get with John. Of course none of this had anything to do with him at all, but for some reason it had boiled his blood. He felt betrayed which was something he couldn't understand. True, John was his best friend however he was free to do as he pleased, with who he wanted. Libbi had told him she hated Jack, yet she'd slept with him. Hmmm it all sounded rather out of character. He had no idea what the truth was or whether it was all a load of rumours.

He sat aimlessly staring at the tv. He watched as Jeremy Kyle argued and bickered with the audience. It was all pointless, and in reality he couldn't understand why people put themselves through it, putting themselves on tv to be ridiculed. He wondered what it would be like if they went on, him, John, Libbi and Jack. It wouldn't have a purpose, but he was sure they crazy English bloke would find one.

He couldn't really understand why he was annoyed at Libbi. Maybe it was because he'd thought he was beginning to open up to her and trust her. He couldn't believe she'd slept with Jack especially since she hated him. It was total obliteration of her character and his trust. He sat thinking it over in his head, noting the resemblement on tv. His thoughts were distracted by the opening of a door but he didn't move or look, expecting it to be Jack.

[Libbi Stevens]

Libbi had been wandering around the grounds. Just thinking. She still couldn't believe she had sex with Jack. Of course he still annoyed her, and she still found him obnoxious. She had no idea why she had done it, and wasn't a mistake, but she didn't want it either. And she still liked Theo...a lot. But he had to have found out. Now she probably wouldn't even stand a chance. Libbi walked back up to her dorm, all she really wanted to do was curl up on her bed and sleep, or take a nice warm bath.

She tried to open the door as quietly as possible, and hoping at the same time no one was there. But of course there was, Theo. Libbi took a deep breath and closed the door and went over to sit by him on the couch. "Hey Theo." Libbi said quietly, looking at her hands. Libbi was more than embarassed, more than mad and upset at herself.

She was trying to keep her breathing slow and steady as her heart beat faster and faster. Libbi couldn't bare to look him in the eyes, she was ashamed of herself, of what she had done. Libbi wouldn't blame Theo for whatever he said to her, if he said anything at all. She had no idea if he even did know, although he was stupid if he didn't. Jack had probably told everyone she had slept with him. Of course he was the one that had kissed her first.

[Theo Spencer]

Theo didn’t look up as he heard the door, mainly because he wasn’t really in the mood to be social. It seemed although he was probably the most popular out of his friends and roommates, he was also the most celibate. He was even considering sleeping with Ashley, although this was something he didn’t really want to do. However he also didn’t want to remain celebate for the next however many months, things were getting desperate. True he could pleasure himself, but it wasn’t the same feeling as having sex. It infuriated him.

He nodded as Libbi sat next to him, noting had quietness. ”Hey.” He stated softly, his eyes flickering briefly to her then back to the tv. It was obvious that Theo had not moved from the settee since he woke up. Sat in a pair of shorts and a vest he had only moved to get food and drinks. It was obvious as the coffee table had an empty plate and glass on top of it, which had stood there for a few hours. ”So you looking for Jack? He’s not here.” He stated bluntly and abruptly, his eyes not moving from the screen. ”Sorry I guess that was harsh. But since you two are an item now I guess I’ll look for a new tutor.” He shrugged being particularly childish. ”Sorry. Libs.” He muttered adjusting his legs slightly; if she really wanted to she could have probably peered up his shorts. ”Just ignore me. I’m wallowing in self pitty.” He stated sighing. He’d not really felt much better since the Myers attack.

He got up and made his way to the fridge his hand automatically finding a can of beer. He cracked it open and took a swig before making his way back to his seat. He picked up the remote and flicked it onto Jerry Springer before slouching back in his chair. He took another drink and sighed. ”So you had sex with Jack huh? Thought you hated him.” He stated bluntly.

[Libbi Stevens]

Libbi felt horrible. It wasn't like her and Theo were an item, but she felt she had somehow betrayed him. The coffee table was scattered with cans and food. She felt awkward, and horrible. Her stomach churned and she took a pack of gum out of her pocket, and popped a piece into her mouth. The gentle spearmint flavor calmed not only her churning nerves, but her churning stomach as well. Theo's words stung. Her eyes shut tight, to try to block the tears. She had made the biggest mistake of her life that night. And now she was...pregnant. "We will never be an item." Libbi said flatly. He would never know, never understand what she was going through. He appologized and stated he was having a pity-party. "That makes two of us then." She admitted, as she leaned back on the couch, staring at the ceiling.

"Of course I still hate him. He came onto me, and I got swept up in the moment." Her voice was thick with embarassment. She would never live this down, but she didn't mind his bluntness either. At least he had the guts to just come out and ask. Other people whispered, or just beat around the bush. Libs turned her head to look at him. "Theo, I really fucked up big time." She said softly. Libbi just wanted someone to talk to, someone that would listen to her, if only for a few moments. She stared blankly at the television, tears running down her cheeks. Libbi wiped them away with the back of her hand. She got up and found a box of tissues, then plopped back down on the couch. "Look at me, I'm a freaking wreck." Libbi said laughing at herself.

[Theo Spencer]

Theo continued to watch the screen, rather bemused by one of the guests flinging a chair across the studio. He figured shows like this were staged, but they were quite amusing. He glanced over to Libbi hearing her flat words and he raised his eyebrow. ”Seriously Libs, what did you expect? He’s a selfish slag who will never ever leave Larrissa.” He shrugged his shoulders, ”You knew all of this. I’d warned you about him.” In a way he felt bad for Libbi, guessing she’d have been manipulated, but then again she was a clever girl and she knew what Jack was like. ”I take it you were drunk?” he asked hopefully, the rumour had sort of been that she had come onto Jack. Theo rolled his eyes complacently, ”Well now you know what it feels like to sleep with someone you don’t care about, who doesn’t care about you, and have him not call then spread it to the rest of the school.” His words were blunt but he had no idea what she was going through and the way it appeared to him, it was mostly her own doing. ”No offence Libs but you brought this on yourself.”

Theo took another gulp from his drink, feeling his head begin to fuzz, he’d actually had quite a lot to drink. ”Swept up in the moment? Geez Libbs. You can’t hate him that much if you got sucked in by his bullshit.” Theo stated bitterly. He had no idea why he was acting so jealous. Maybe it was because he was alone and at the moment he didn’t really want to be alone. ”How’d you fuck up? It’s your life Libs. I’ve slept with a few regrettable women in my time. You get over it and move on.” Theo sighed feeling he would have to stop being blunt. It wasn’t really fair. He glanced up as he watched her get some tissues, tears rolling down her cheeks. ”You okay? It’s only sex Libs. Not like it was your first was it?” He stated in a questionable manner. ”Why are you a wreck?” He asked softly, ”Here.” He stated holding his arms out to hug her, he wasn’t good at all this emotional stuff but he would try.

[Libbi Stevens]

"I know! I honestly do." Libbi said exhasperated. She still had no idea had it had happened. Of course she knew how, but why it happened was still a mystery to her. Of course the rumors of her coming onto him were false, well, partly. But he had kissed her first. But it was Jack, he was bound to turn it around to make it look like her fault. Not that it mattered, she knew very well what would happen, but she just chose not to think about it at the time. She shook her head, embarassed. "No. But I certainly didn't come onto him!" She exclaimed. "You have to believe me Theo. Please." She pleaded, hoping she wasn't coming across as weird, but who cared, it was too late for that now. She laughed, more at herself. "I love your bluntness Theo. And yes, it is my own fault. I'm not saying it isn't." Libbi said, looking at him once more.

"We were in the fountain, next thing you know, our clothes are off, and then he kissed me, I kissed him, and we had sex." Libbi said bluntly. She noted his bitterness. He had never acted bitter towards her. But he hated Jack, and she hated Jack, and then she went and had sex with him. "I can't just get over it." If only he knew why. Libbi gulped. "Oh no." She said, slightly appalled Theo would even consider she would waste her first time on Jack, if it had been. Libbi wasn't a virgin, and didn't claim to be either.

Then his voice was soft, and he held his arms out. Libbi fell into his side. "I'm pregnant." Libbi muttered into his shoulder. Who knows how the hell he would react now. She really couldn't keep it from him though. Libbi really didn't have any close friends to talk to. And Theo was the only one that had even somewhat listened to her. "See why I can't just get over it?" She added softly.

[Theo Spencer]

Theo sighed, he was unable to decide as to whether or not Libbi was really telling the truth. He couldn't really figure out if Libbi had lied all along having a huge crush on Jack. It would make sense. Theo smirked as she denied coming on to Jack, "Whether or not you came on to him is beside the point. You slept with him willingly. You are a consenting adult." He shrugged, this wasn't his problem anymore. He'd have to tell her that. Yes he was her friend but he wasn't her guidance counciller. He wasn't going to take her out with his friends because she'd shown who she was interested in. Theo had contemplated coming on to her when he took her out but he obviously wasn't her type. Jack was. His mind filled with a number of questions but he tried to ignore them, ensuring that his mind was focussed only on what she was saying and the tv screen. He was blunt there was no denying that, but evidently this was not about him, and there was no beating around the bush about it.

Theo cocked an eyebrow an unimpressed look skating across his features. "Spare me the details Libbi. You had outdoor sex with a guy you hate? I'd only have outdoor sex with someone I really cared about." He stated rolling his eyes, "In fact I've only ever had outdoor sex with Sienna. Maybe Tyra actually, but that's different." He sighed shaking his head. He was admittedly disappointed in her. He thought she was better than that, maybe not. Theo shrugged his shoulders, "Well I didnt know if you were or not." He didn't pretend to know the ins and outs of everyones sex life. He was a jock not a prep.

He held her as he felt she needed it, and he heard her muttered words. He frowned slightly, almost relieved he'd not taken her out. "Oh. Sorry to hear that." He stated not really being good at this sort of thing. He nodded as she asked her question, it was going to be tough for her. "I think my sisters pregnant. Does Jack know?" He asked her curiously, thinking it would cause hell. Theo released her from his grasp, his face slightly sympathetic. "You seen the doc?" He asked taking a drink from his can, "Are you keeping it?"

[Libbi Stevens]

Libbi just nodded. "But I regret it, every minute. And not just because I'm pregnant...but..." She just couldn't find the words. She knew Theo probably didn't care, and she wouldn't blame him. But she wished she hadn't, she was being completely honest with him. And just the fact he made a small attempt to listen to her made Libbi happy. "But I don't like him!" Libbi snapped, but instantly felt bad that she had taken her anger out on poor Theo.

"I wish I wouldn't have even talked to him that night. I wish I had been in my dorm, talking to you. I can't believe you are oblivious to the fact I've had a huge crush on you. But I blew it, I've blown it with everything. I know, what a wonderful way to show it..." Libbi said, leaning away from him, keeping an eye on his expression. "I haven't gotten around to telling him yet." She said softly. Who knows how that would go. "Not yet. And I don't know, I guess I have to consult with Jack about it." Libbi said shrugging. "I'm sorry Theo, I'm sorry for pouring all this onto you, I'm sorry I had sex with Jack, I'm sorry." Libbi murmered, feeling horrible about herself. Hoping he would just say he hated her and walk away, so she would have a legitimate reason to hate herself, to have a reason to run away and never look back.

[Theo Spencer]

Theo listened to Libbi moan on, as far as he was concerned if you didn’t wear a condom it was your own stupid fault if you ended up with a kid. He wasn’t that stupid. He always carried one with him because he always wore them whenever he decided to have sex. Sure, it may have been a bit of an inconvenience but being a dad at the tender age of eighteen was so much more of an inconvenience. Theo had learnt that the hard way. When he was sixteen he had slept with someone and she had had a pregnancy scare but luckily that’s all it was, since then he’s always used them. ”You may not like him Libs but you have to forget that and deal with what’s happening to you. Your pregnant, so its not just you to think about. You gotta go see the doctor. Really, because you need to know what your options are. And if you are going to keep the baby you gotta make sure you have the right support. i.e. your parents.” He explained, it all came pretty natural to him, and he couldn’t really be sure he was giving her the right advice. When he was sixteen and he thought he was going to be a dad; he told his sister; and she went beserk. He guessed if his parents had been alive they’d have been even less happy. From what he knew of Libbi’s parents; they were difficult to get along with.

His eyes were focused on the tv but he was listening to every word she was saying. He took a drink of his beer before choking on her words. He coughed as the beer went down the wrong way. Shuffling to the edge of the settee he bent forward, coughing and spluttering, his eyes watering, his cheeks reddened partly from his coughing, and partly due to her confession. He looked over to her, his eyebrows raised and his mouth slightly ajar. ”You have a crush on me?” He asked curiously just double checking he had heard things right. ”But I thought you figured I was some air headed jock?” he questioned running his hand over his head. ”You know what’s amusing, maybe even ironic? I was going to ask you out; to go somewhere, but you were out the other day; so I didn’t bother.” He laughed slightly although the situation was hardly comical, especially since she was now pregnant. ”You’re a nice girl Libbi.” He advised her, carefully taking a drink. ”Yeah but its your decision really. It’s your body. Don’t be sorry you crazy girl. You obviously need to talk about it. And I was here, wallowing, so why not.” He shrugged he didn’t really care much that she offloaded. It was more the fact that it was Jack’s baby, but it was her life and she’d chosen Jack. Not him.

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[Libbi Stevens]

Libbi listened to him talk, agreeing with him. "I can't talk to my parents. Mom would kick me out and dad would say how I'm the biggest screw up and I should be more like my brother." She gushed. Of course that's how it would end up. They were always telling her how she should be more like her brother. If only they knew what he was really like. Now she was getting worked up. Libbi took a deep breath and calmed her freyed nerves as best she could. "I'm so scared Theo." Libbi said, her eyes filling up with tears. "Here I have this little thing growing inside me. It's so weird and scary to think about it. But I know I'm not ready to do this." She continued, pouring out her thoughts. She didn't even care if he was listening to her or not, she just needed to get all of this out. Theo could get up and leave for all she cared, for she would continue to talk to herself.

Maybe telling him had not been the best idea, Libbi thought as he choked on his beer. He leaned forward, eyes reddened. "Yes I have a crush on you. And no, I never thought that! What made you think I thought that?" She asked, surprised. Then she began laughing. "You wanted to take me out? I hope you know, that putting all of this aside, I would have picked you over Jack anyday, and I would still pick you over Jack, and I will probably always pick you over Jack." She said grinning. "And you don't know how much it means to me that you listened." Libbi said sincerely, being completely honest. "Wallowing? What were you wallowing about?" She asked curiously. Libbi fell back against the couch, heaving a sigh. "I really wish this weren't Jack's baby. Anyone but him. It's not even the fact I can't stand him, but he's so obnoxious and self-centered, and just....ugh!" Then she paused. "Okay, so maybe it is because i can't stand him." Libbi continued laughing.